Life as it is...

Let me begin with a warning:
I can not guarantee the following words and future blogs will be entertaining. Some might not even make sense. This blog is for me to have a place to write down (type down...) what is going through my head, and what is happening in my life.

-end of warning-

So...right now, what's going through my head? Well, to put it simply...I miss Lee. A lot. It's been ONE day and I miss him like crazy. I'm literally going to die when he has to leave for 8 weeks, and then 8 months after that...and then 3-4 years after that. Oh my god...I will die. How will I survive not seeing him for years? I know we've talked about our future together and how we don't want to rush into anything, but we do love each other already and I have a feeling in my gut that we're gonna end up spending our lives together (kinda exhilarating and nerve-wracking all at once). True, I will see him at the end of the 8 weeks for his graduation, but I don't know....
He wants me with him in Mississippi (the 8 month period) but I don't think I'll be ready by then. He's said he's not going to come back after a couple years and just burst out a proposal, and he wants to make sure I'm ready...but even if we wait the four years, I'll only be 22. He'll be 26. My mom doesn't even think we'll go the full 4 years without getting engaged (Oh....my......god.....just saying that sounds so effing weird)

I'm so excited for him though. He's going to do so amazing in the field he's going into and I can't wait to see where God leads him, and what He has planned for him. I'm just going to need a LOT of strength to actually get through this.

I need to stop talking about this though, because it makes me feel sad and feel very unsure about the future. I know I just have to trust God though. He is testing my faith. And Lee's. And yeah...it's not easy and it's just gonna get harder. But I know we can do it.

In other news:
I get my stitches out in the morning. I'm praying that there are no infected ones. Cause those BUUUUURRRNN!!! My back is finally almost 100% healed. Yay!
And I'm very distracted now...so it's time to wrap up this first blog.

Until next time,
Rebekah <3